A telegraph from Elysium

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As he is in my memory, Handsome Redred
Two of our horses were in the dream, the Arabians, both of whom perished last year. So, too, the miscreant aptly named Pyewacket— a fierce disagreeable little cat whose provenance is known only inasmuch as she is the progeny of one of the feral cats that took up residence in the barn a few years ago.

I was trying to connect with the horses at turns. But my Night shade was finding them, not the real me— a defensive version, relating to Pye; always the trickster version,

It spooked and scared the horses, the gentle kind— So they told me, in their way, I must find them as myself.

I whispered in my sleep “I don’t know how.”

And Red somehow telegraphed the message to me through what technology he found in that place, it told me

When the stars are going out—
And you’re looking for a face before you leave—
Make it mine.”

And I tried like hell to escape the deep molasses of sleep, to find him; to remember— To shake it all off and just recall that one moment, of him.

Him, merged with my childhood; Magic; the Elysian Fields, the Farm— the Infinite; revisiting me. And I did, sort of— but he was talking about when the Stars Go Out. So I’ll meet him when I die.

I have to wait. (I’ll always look for his face.)
Animals are the closest I get to religion.

.   .   .

Later on,  I painted that little sketch of him. Here’s the one I did when he passed:

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And here’s one of Red and Comet, our red and black Arabian gentlemen:

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3 thoughts on “A telegraph from Elysium

  1. last thursday the word elysium popped up in my dictionary-having felt loss this year myself i thought it’d be a good idea to write a poem about the word. then i hoped in some shape or form that my person would somehow send me a letter or something from wherever he is to help me find myself or some form of ground. and your “when the stars go out,” feels close enough. i like how you used “passing” instead of any other dreadful synonym. thank you so much for sharing this and i hope when the lights go out you’ll see your horse too.

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